Certain things cling to you endlessly. They weigh you down. But the worst part of it is you just have no frickin idea of a solution. Certain happening or situation makes you feel like “its ending now” or “its time to be free”. But it’s false hope. Its like a virus that infects, produce symptoms and suppressed by drugs. But it can stay dormant for a time period and when you least expected, it activates itself and cause excruciating pain. Worst of all, its not going away ever. It stays in your nerves. But unlike in the case of the virus where it reactivates when the body is most susceptible, this thing, this painful thing that we’re talking about, does quite the opposite. Its when you feel you’re on top of the world or perfectly happy that it reignites the pain. And even the pain that you felt in the past becomes as real as it was time and time ago.
Of course, the easiest course of action seems to be to run away from it. Perhaps staying at a place far away from the original place appears to be a perfect idea. There you’ll meet new people, strangers who care less about who you were, where you’re from, who your family were and so on. And perhaps find a woman who cares only about “the now you” and won’t even asks a question about “the past you”. But you cannot do all this for the mere reason that you are not privileged enough to be having a choice. You have to live with the pain. Its like you’ve been diagnosed with cancer where even with modern therapy, the chances of remission is still fifty fifty. You may think of running away from it. But can you?. Its in your system and you are not given any choice but to live with it. It will frequently cause pain, take away away your appetite then your strength and finally your life. But what if a great discovery is made of a cent per cent cure. We’ll all run for it, won’t we?.